Growing up as your typical middle child, I always wanted harmony and did all I could to keep everyone happy. I learned quickly to say 'yes' to everything asked of me – even if I didn't want to. It was how I gained love and approval.
This way of being transferred into my career as a people pleaser and over-achiever. I spent years working long hours, pulling all-nighters to get the job done and working to meet so many expectations set on me by me, my bosses, customers, competition, team, friends, spouse, and parents...what felt like everyone.
Over time, I learned that I have a keen sense for connecting dots - I love to simplify a message and get people excited about something! This shifted into my personal life shortly after my mom's passing; the void of my mom wasn't just the void of missing her presence, something else had cracked open. When I realized, and was ready to admit, that I was living for everyone but me, I quickly started to connect the dots of my past with my present. I wanted to know why I do & think the way I do.
I came to understand that we make choices one of two ways - out of love or out of fear.
And although love is always greater than fear, I was subconsciously choosing fear-based action. With the deep desire to live my best life #now, I needed to dig in and make some significant changes to my life.
I began to understand how to embody a life led by love - from the soul level. And I noticed my communications, actions and relationships started to shift and evolve. I became more conscious, leading to deeper mindfulness and being more present every day.
And through various books and methodologies, healers, energy work, time, and deep personal awareness, I have created a map back to mySelf. I can acknowledge when I am slipping back into subconscious habit, and I have the freedom of choice to use my tools and move through the experience & related emotions - or not.
I have inherent gratitude for everything this life has brought me through. A deep knowing that I am fully supported and divinely guided keeps me grounded. And I have learned to slow WAY down, consciously choose mySelf every day and, in bite-size pieces, find a place of joy and connectedness again and again.
Of course, it's not always easy, but knowing I have the choice to live from love or from fear has been a game changer. I now recognize that once we begin to awaken, we move into an infinite transformative state of being.
And anything is possible when I continue to let go and surrender to the idea that endless possibilities live inside of the unconditional love that I give myself every day.
Knowing that this is inherently available to everyone and that life kidnaps us and leads us away from our pure essence has brought me to my soul's work of sharing how to move through the fear and let love lead the way!